Mar 12
Evil Judy Garland…
Ever had one of those days when you’ve slogged through some of the hardest things you have to do and then, when the sun goes down, you realise that you’ve gotten exactly nowhere? That’s today. Intellectually, I know things are step by step and today’s steps count but, to mix clichéd metaphors, it still feels like a house of cards and the road ahead is long.
Ever feel as though - if you’re the puppeteer of your own life - there are too many strings to manage and while one limb is dancing to your tune, the other is flailing? Somewhere along the line, things must get easier. I liked being young and irresponsible, able to just cut strings. Now, I have no choice but to arduously untangle them all, hoping nothing breaks in the process.
Ever feel like there is an evil Judy Garland in your head singing, It never ra-ains, but what it po-ours… in her chirpy little voice just to drive you insane? So what if all your troubles come in bunches, keep sticking to your silly little hunches…
And the sun will come shining through.
Yeah, right.
I’m a child of Nirvana. I need depressive music to cheer me up. So I’m turning up Lisa Germano and listening to Cancer of Everything.
March 12th, 2008 at 11:02 pm
all the farkin time. Hence my need to make fun of most things - if I didn’t laugh at it, I’d end up in knots.
March 13th, 2008 at 6:52 am
I do that too. I listened to headbanging 80s heavy metal hair bands today
March 13th, 2008 at 9:24 am
Yes. I’m of a different generation and wouldn’t think of turning to Nirvana, still I know what you mean about the music. In bad times, give me catharsis, not positive thinking!
March 13th, 2008 at 3:30 pm
Way, way back when I was a child there was the Judy Garland show on TV. My brother and I would groan and change the channel as quickly as possible. It wasn’t even intended to be uplifting. But give me Radiohead to cut my wrists to any day. ‘We hope that you choke, that you choke.’ They know how to express a bit of discontent!
March 13th, 2008 at 4:07 pm
Nirvana probably wouldn’t be my first choice in music, but something along those lines anyway. No “cheesy grin” music. And like Bettina, I often make fun of things or twist them around so they are funny, so that I lauugh instead of cry.
Hope you get the strings untangled soon. And write down the steps in the process so that you can tick things off, no matter how small. At least you can see some progress then and that helps.
March 13th, 2008 at 10:04 pm
Bettina - Lol. i didn’t think i was alone in that feeling.
Enola - Headbanging is a great, great thing!
SnakyPoet - Exactly!
Gemisht - Not my first choice either, probably. I guess I was meaning more a child of the whole depressing grunge music scene. (And I mean depressing in the nicest possible way
) Lists, eh? I think doing that is already on my mental list. Not quite the same thing, is it?
March 14th, 2008 at 12:20 am
I’m of the same generation as CM but somehow missed the whole grunge thing: I spent the 90s listening to pub rock and Dead Can Dance. But I agree, depressing music has its place … I tend to go for something classical, like Michael Nyman or Albinoni’s Adagio.
March 19th, 2008 at 9:49 am
I can relate to this.
Sometimes it all gets too much.